Popcornsushi

Huh.

2009-12-11T02:38:44Z

Weather - Cold/rainy.

You confuse me.

I don't even know what you're thinking anymore.

Sometimes...

2009-11-15T05:10:18Z

Weather - Cold

I wish you'd talk to me. But I guess not.
I wouldn't know what to say.

"Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance"

I'm glad to see

2009-08-29T22:50:47Z

you're over me.

Someone You Used to Know

2009-08-09T09:11:33Z

Someone You Used to Know
Copyright 2008

It was helpless anyway
There's nothing much we could do or say
Darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way

So here's to say goodbye,
our love is lost, and we cant figure why
maybe it really is about time
that we finally made up our minds

So Darling, here's to you
i hope that when you find someone new
that she would always be true to you
to love and understand you

Soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
then i would slowly be
a distant memory

*Soon i'll just be
that someone you used to know
But darling you will thank me
for letting you go
time is not for wasting
i hope you'll find your intended
But i'm sorry
that your intended isn't me

it's not an easy thing
to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me
but they will always stay with me

i admit i made mistakes
but darling with you it's just the same
if we stay there will be more to make
i dont know how much more we can take

Darling, it would be unfair
to stay with something no longer there
but it doesn't mean i no longer care
but i'd feel like a burden you can't bear

Deep Sorrow

2009-08-09T08:08:36Z

Deep Sorrow

The darkness comes to me silently
But i want to be her light
I try to catch the setting sunset, but i cant
My girl is afraid of the darkness
Please help me to be the sunlight
to light up this night..

*If only I am by her side,
I can be anything
Her handbag, hankercheif, her warm coat
her lipstick even her shoes..
If only I am by her side
even if I am not a precious thing
I am so happy.
I would even be a street light
if i can only see her walk home..

Rap) Girl You the flyiest 34, 24, 35
her perfect body but she walks the opposite way
I'm a turn back then
I will pick all the stars from the sky for you
I will give you anything you want
When i first saw you...
Even when i closed my eyes I see you

I still think of the things that are missing
I didnt do anything for her..
Even If i had half the world to myself
If shes not next to me, there is no meaning in that..

*Repeat

Tomorrow the sun will rise in the morning
Why? Because she wants it too
There is probably nothing prettier than her smile
(Yes, I pray for her everyday)
But I'll be in pain because she doesnt even know my name
What should i do..

Rap) If only it is by her side, I'll like anything
I like the fact that I can spend the day with you
When its so dark, you cant even see in front of you
C'mon, dont be afraid, I'll be your light
If you think you are alone, look around you
Im a here for you

I can live day by day just by thinking about her
Shes the only one who has my heart and my soul
If only I am by her side I can be anyone
A friend, her father, even her teacher
So I can tell her that I love her

*Repeat

If only I was by her side...

____________________

Favorite song from SHINHWA! =D

Alone - Outsider.

2009-07-12T07:54:11Z

Weather - Cold.

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

365 days, all year long, i wander
jack sparrow holds the rudder, chasing my spirit
the raging hurricane, tightening my belt
a rapper who forfeited his orientation and lost his way
i fight again with the other me who's hiding inside me

when she left, she told me
'even when you're next to me, it's like you're not there"
a blade-like love that brushes off when you touch it
it was a cold love where my heart froze over

yeah, living for one minute, one second is not living
everyday, i fear every day
m'aidez! someone, pull me out

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

when i faced our farewell that came without warning,
afraid that i'd be alone again, i ignored it
the past times that i yearn for even in my dreams
hoping for those times to return to me, with an earnest heart
i prayed every night

the arrow of memories that pulled the bowstring and left my hand
it flies endlessly towards the far target
i'm asking you to come back to me, to hold onto my hand
no matter how many times i call you, though i endlessly shout for you
there's no response from you

in my memories, no matter how much i struggle to erase your existence
every night, in my dreams,
she appears, wiping away my falling tears
what should i do? say that everything is ok?
lie to myself? i can't take this anymore!

when it hurts, i hurt too. when it's sad, i'm sad too
my frozen heart keeps accusing me
really, it's the end. really, i'm okay.
the tears that i've held in keeps pouring down on me

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

credits to soompi

Human

2009-06-10T03:47:05Z

Weather - Windy but sunny.

Ten Rules for Being Human

by Cherie Carter-Scott

1.	You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.
2.	You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."
3.	There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."
4.	Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5.	Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.
6.	"There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
7.	Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8.	What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9.	Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10.	You will forget all this.

popcornsushi @ 2009-05-27T20:24:00

2009-05-28T03:26:11Z

Weather - Hot and Sunny.

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
if you complain too much about this world
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
fall down and not going forward
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
why do you have to be so weak sink low
请你打开电视看看
please turn on tv and see
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
how many people are struggling to courageous go forward
我们是不是该知足
shouldn´t we be contented with what we have?
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
cherish all even if you don´t possess it

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
still remember when you said home was your only palace
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
continuing running along with the rice field fragrant and river flowing
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
happily smiling childhood dreams I know
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
don´t cry let the fireflies take you away
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
leaning forever on the countryside´s ballad
童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里
childhood´s paper plane now is flying to my hands
所谓的那快乐
that careless happiness
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
barefeet chasing after dragonflies till tired out
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
stealing fruits making the bees sting till frightened who was laughing?
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
I fell asleep with the jackstraw blowing the wind and singing songs
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
wo wo in the afternoon the guitar is clearer in the middle of the bugs singing
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
wo wo sunshine sprinking on the street making me not afraid of heartbreaking
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
cherish it all even if you don´t possess it

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
still remember when you said home was your only palace
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
continuing running along with the rice field fragrant and river flowing
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
happily smiling childhood dreams I know
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
don´t cry let the fireflies take you away
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
leaning forever on the countryside´s ballad
回家吧回到最初的美好
go home go back to the initial perfectness

不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
don´t give up so easily just like I said
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
the dreams that you can´t pursue just switch to another
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
for our lifes, paint some colors
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
first paint a color you like for love
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
smile a little render outstanding service and be famous it´s not a goal (? not sure if it´s like this)
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
let yourself be happy being happy, that is called a meaning

童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里
childhood´s paper plane now is flying to my hands
所谓的那快乐
that careless happiness
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
barefeet chasing after dragonflies till tired out
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了谁在偷笑呢
stealing fruits making the bees sting till frightened who was laughing?
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了
I fell asleep with the jackstraw blowing the wind and singing songs
哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
wo wo in the afternoon the guitar is clearer in the middle of the bugs singing
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
wo wo sunshine sprinking on the street making me not afraid of heartbreaking
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
cherish it all even if you don´t possess it

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
still remember when you said home was your only palace
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
continuing running along with the rice field fragrant and river flowing
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
happily smiling childhood dreams I know
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
don´t cry let the fireflies take you away
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
leaning forever on the countryside´s ballad
回家吧回到最初的美好
go home go back to the initial perfectness

_______________________________

Btw, I'm 20.

Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien

2009-05-20T19:53:00Z

Weather - Sunny and Nice

"Mayauru the fairy lost her memory
and lived alone in the forest.
One day a lonely girl happened to come by
and they became friends.
The girl called lots of friends
and they all played happily.
But Mayauru wasn't human and aged slowly.
The children grew up and eventually forgot Mayauru.
And then, the girl she first met...
was the only one left.
But that girl grew up
and wouldn't play with her anymore.
Even so, the grown-up girl
couldn't forget Mayauru and came back.

Finally,
Mayauru gave the lonely-looking girl a present.
. . .

Sayonara... words of farewell.

Until then, people didn't know of
the words of farewell.
Mayauru was a farewell fairy.
She'd forgotten that because
it's painful to have nothing but farewells.
The grown-up girl learned the words from Mayauru.
And that girl who knew words of farewell...
She became the world's kindest person.

That is the book of our meeting.
Should we...
part with a smile?""

Qing Hua Ci

2009-04-26T01:00:56Z

Weather - Sunny and nice.

su pei gou le chu qing hua bi feng nong zhuan dan
The brush outlines a beautiful pattern, brush strokes becoming lighter

ping shen miao hui de mu dan yi ru ni chu zhuang
The peony on the bottle, simplest beauty, just like you

ran ran tan xiang tou gou chuang xin shi wo liao ran
Whiffs of incense smoke bring your troubles to my heart

xuan zhi shang zou bi zhi ci ge yi ban
I pause halfway while painting

you se xuan ran shi nv tu yun wei bei si cang
The glazing of the lady's portrait hides her charm

er ni yan ran de yi xiao ru han bao dai fang
Your smile, to me, like a budding flower

ni de mei yi lv piao san / qu dao wo qu bu liao de di fang
But your beauty dissipates like smoke, to a place I can never reach

*tian qing se deng yan yu / er wo zai deng ni
The perfect shade of blue awaits the right weather, like how I wait for you

chui yan niao niao sheng qi / ge jiang qian wan li
From a thousand miles away, I gaze at the curling chimney smoke

zai ping di shu han li fang qian zhao de piao yi
The calligraphy beneath the bottle, elegance of the Han Dynasty

jiu dang wo wei yu jian ni fu bi
Our meeting I foreshadowed

**tian qing se deng yan yu / er wo zai deng ni
The perfect shade of blue awaits the right weather, like how I wait for you

yue se bei da lao qi / yun kai liao jie ju
The moonlight smudged away the remnants of our ending

ru zhuan shi de qing hua ci zi gu zi mei li / ni yan dai xiao yi
Like legendary porcelain obsessed with itself, your eyes full of laughter

se bai hua qing de jin li yue ran yu wan di
Those blue carp seem to come alive on the white bowl

lin mo song ti luo kan shi que dian ji zhe ni
While I am imitating the Song inscription I'm thinking of you

ni yin cang zai yao shao li qian nian de mi mi
The eon of secrets you buried in the kiln

ji xi ni you ru xiu hua zhen luo di
It's exquisiteness like an embroidery needle

lian wai ba jiao re zhou yu men huan re tong lv
The banana tree outside brought the sudden downpour, and in turn the copper rust on the door handle

er wo lu guo na jiang nan xiao zhen re le ni
My passing by Jiangnan brings me to you

zai po mo shan shui hua li / ni cong mo se shen chu bei yin qu
Yet you fade away into the deep abyss of the Chinese painting

~~

I've done a lot for love. Just no longer for ours.

Break's Over.

2009-03-29T05:41:35Z

Weather - Sunny and Hot.

There were many chances over this break that I could have replied to your post after reading it, but I guess I'm in a stressful enough state already. I wanted to take this week to relax before I have to go back to Hell.

There's really not much I can say to your post. That song wasn't really intended for anyone in particular. I just really liked it. The melody was mesmerizing. You can say I'm running away from things or just not wanting to deal with it anymore, and that may be true. I just don't really feel anything anymore when it comes to you. (haha, sorry I'm in a lethargic mood atm) You may have some things that you need to say to me face to face and that's fine I guess. I can't promise that it's anytime soon. It's probably the closure that you need? I'm surprised you kept the things I gave you. You told me you've burned it all, haha. Guess not. I'm sorry you're hating everything at the moment, but then again, so am I. I hate school, I hate the major that I'm trying to finish, and I hate the future career that I've been forced into. I hate the drama I have with my roommate, I hate how my mom is still pushing me, and frankly, I hate having to deal with all the negatives in a relationship. So there. We all hate something. I'm glad you can still see me as some source of motivation and comfort, but I think you're looking at the wrong person. I can't provide anything.

This was when I first realized that our criminal justice system was so false. I was framed. How else can I respond? Watch this drama if you care about how I felt when I was torn apart. I was FRAMED my dear...what else could I have thought back then? I didnt give a darn about what happened then. I served for now reason. Like Hei did in this Hong Kong drama. I was told that if I were to try and investigate any of part of why i served...I would wind up back in there.

Sorry. If anything, I was the one that framed you. I'm not taking blame or anything, but if we were to point fingers, I was the one that started it all. We can talk about manipulation and how I was a bad person and everything, but that's all in the past. I don't really want to explain it again.

The pain that you caused me in the past? Consider it my repayment for the pain I inflicted on you. I've repayed my debt, which is why I don't feel anything towards you anymore. No hate or love or anything. My feelings are very neutral now... You don't have to beat yourself over it. We were both young and stupid. As for your love that you proclaim that you still have for me... sorry, but I can't accept it. Not anymore. Thank you for liking me and no, I'm not sure how you see me. I don't know if you see me thru a negative or positive lens, but it doesn't matter.

The Pearl deep within a sea of uncertainties. I don't quite understand this, but okay.

Right now, at this very moment (probably a bad time), I literally feel nothing. I'm surprisingly very calm and have little emotions at all. I've thought about what you've written and all, but I just don't know how to take everything. I've just been very stressed out about a lot of things, so forgive me if I seem very mellow right now. If you want to know the truth, maybe this is the best time to tell you before I gather emotions and rethink things.

The truth is, I really don't want anything to do with you anymore. As cold and cruel as that may sound, I think that's what I've been thinking all this time. We're two spheres that I hope would not touch anymore. I think that would be the best for everyone. I have so much in my life that I need to focus on now, and so do you. I'm really too tired to deal with all this. If we could have been friends (what you call "nothing") the illusion of being connected could have persisted. But of course, everything has to be made complicated. And I'm done with that. I've buried my past and I'm just moving on in life. Please don't bring up the past with me anymore, because that's not who I am currently. The past... is bittersweet; lots of good and lots of bad, and we both learned from it.
I don't know how this post will affect you, or you might take it the wrong way, but that's just how I feel. Thank you for your best wishes and the same goes to you. I'll try to see myself through your eyes.

I guess that's all I have to say. I believe the final goodbye would be when we meet face to face isn't it. Sigh.

Doushiite....

2009-03-18T15:13:20Z

Weather - Sunny.

Such a beautiful song... I cried before even knowing what the lyrics were...

Fairytales...

2009-03-05T07:19:48Z

Weather - Weird.

popcornsushi @ 2009-03-01T21:55:00

2009-03-02T05:56:40Z

Weather - Rainy/windy.

If there ever is a chance to meet and talk, then sure. As for now, nothing is set in stone.

To each its own.

2009-02-19T20:46:08Z

Weather - Sunny.

We were always very different people with different views. A realist and an idealist.

Guess in the end, it'll always be that way. Pity.

Sweet Irony.

2009-02-18T01:20:24Z

Weather - Rainy, windy and cold.

I may have seem angry and sad in the beginning because I was mainly worried how my mom would react. It came as a shock to me really, when that girl handed you the laptop. I didn't see you the day before and I didn't see you in returns. Thought I wasn't going to, but then of course, sweet twisted fate brought me to you. I was mainly analyzing how my mom was viewing everything. I nearly bursted out laughing when she mistakened you for one of my distant cousins. Then I just got annoyed as she started asking questions she knew the answers to, but then that's just her nature.

All the while, I just thought how ironic everything was. How you seemed to be so helpful. The shocked look on your face when you first saw me. How you tried to hide all your feelings inside. How you hesitantly walked to the counter. It was... a mixture of feelings.

I teased her afterwards as to how nice she was being to you. I asked her if she thought u were handsome. I laughed to myself when she said you looked sophisticated and gentlemanly. It was funny because for one she didn't recognize you and two, she called you ugly the first time she saw you in our pictures. Of course, being a mom, she's so bias. I spent the next half hour or so at the service desk, testing out the laptop. My parents walked around and all the while, I wonder if you'd suddenly waltz up and talk to me.

What are you to me now? A scar, probably. The cut was made and it scabbed over. The scab fell off and now all that's left is this scar. With time, the scar would also fade, but no matter what, you'll know it's always there. As for resentment? Just a little. But that would all soon fade anyways, just like this scar. I've asked before to remain friends, but still, you vehemently disagree. I have no other choice. It just goes back to the choices you've given me before: either lovers or nothing at all. Well, if those are my only options, then I'll have to chose nothing at all. I'm not running away. I'm putting my foot down.

You look better now. Just keep smiling.

My Life

2009-02-15T08:56:27Z

Weather - Chilly.

Seu-mool set[23](My Life)

written/composed/arranged : KangTa

I until now, I had to forget about myself who lived during this time
and as of now I've found myself
Wait and see, I'm not afraid of myself who changed during that time
Someday I will find myself and change you
I am standing in front of this world
I have nothing to pass
Look at my stronger self inside of me who will live on even without you
Even the pain that I couldn't bear is only a memory to me
Don't misunderstand, Remember
that I'll be the one who will change the world
I've forgotten it all I've even erased my image that had been wandering around
This was it I won't collapse at this
I am standing in front of this world
I have nothing to pass
Look at my stronger self inside of me who will live on even without you
Even the pain that I couldn't bear is only a memory to me
Don't misunderstand, Remember
that I'll be the one who will change the world
If the unbearable loneliness and the ordeals I felt until now was the beginning
I can do it I'm not afraid of the world
I, who I wanted earnestly, won't collapse in front of the world
Look at my strong self breathing inside of me
Even the saddess filled inside of me will become a memory
Don't misunderstand, Remember
that I'll be the one who will change the world

Happily Never After

2009-02-11T23:00:58Z

Weather - Raining, lightning, thunder and wind.

I don't think I want this anymore
As she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself: 'You've left before'
This time you will stay gone, that's for sure

And he shouted something as
She dragged her suitcase down the path,
To the driveway.
She had never gone that far.

Normally this would be the time
That she would let him talk her out of leaving,
But this time, without crying,
As she got into her car, she said,

No, happily never after
That just ain't for me, because finally
I know I deserve better after all,
I'll never let another teardrop fall.

As she drove away she starts to smile,
Realized she hadn't for a while.
No destination, she drove for miles
Wondering why she stayed in such denial.

Laughing about the way he shattered something else
To drag her suitcase down the path,
To the driveway.
She had never gone that far

Normally this would be, the time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving,
But this time, without crying,
As she got into her car, she said,

No, happily never after
That just ain't for me, because finally
I know I deserve better after all,
I'll never let another tear drop fall.

I'm done, I'm done, said I'm so done (So done, done, done, done, done)
I'm free, I'm free, I'm free
Free to be me.

She inhales an air she'd never breathed before
Cure of no drama no more.

She said
{3x}
No, happily never after
That just ain't for me, because finally
I know I deserve better after all,
I'll never let another teardrop fall.

ooowwoooooooowww

Another teardrop fall

What Was Once Felt.

2009-02-07T19:14:09Z

Weather - Cold.

We're driving slow through the snow on Fifth Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talked since we left, it's so overdue
It's cold outside but between us it's worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday, seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you it's hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

Checked Out.

2009-02-07T00:39:52Z

Weather - Rainy and cold.

[Verse 1:]
Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
You went, left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shot
That spun me around
And now my heart left
I feel so empty and hollow

[Pre Chorus:]
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]
And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

[Verse 2:]
Damn,
Ain't it crazy when you're love swept?
You'll do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me
I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way that I was using you
But now that I know, it's not meant to be
You gotta go, I gotta ween myself off of you

[Pre Chorus:]
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

[Chorus:]
And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

[Bridge: Timbaland]
Now ladies, gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, now gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Now ladies, gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, now gimme that
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, Oh, oh, oh

[Pre Chorus:]
Oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

I Belong To Me.

2009-02-04T08:02:42Z

Weather - Nice.

I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

Oh yea

Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me...

I Am.

2009-01-24T04:28:57Z

Weather - Rainy.

I think I've been here before
Yeah, I've been right here
With you walking out the door
And I won't fight it
I think you already know
Don't try to hide it
You know this time I will go
And I won't come back

You said you would,
Be so different,
And your old habits,
You would switch them,
Look at this picture,
Could it get any clearer?
But you're wasting my time

[CHORUS:]
And if you see me walking by
You don't have to spend your time
Asking me if I'm alright
Do I look smarter?
Do I look stronger?
Doesn't it make you wonder?
Well I am, well I am

I think I've seen you before
With that sullen face
Telling me that you don't know why I'm so angry
While you were having some fun
You left me right here
You said you loved me so much

And I don't want you to say you're sorry
I know it's a, a deeper story
You're not fine, well
I'll ignore it
cause I made up my mind

[CHORUS:]
And if you see me walking by
You don't have to spend your time
Asking me if I'm alright
Do I look smarter?
Do I look stronger?
Doesn't it make you wonder?
Well I am, well I am

Look at the stars now baby
Don't let it drive you crazy
And you said
'Baby they calling out you're name'
And I said 'maybe I don't want to be
your baby no more'

[CHORUS:]
And if you see me walking by
You don't have to spend your time
Asking me if I'm alright
Do I look smarter?
Do I look stronger?
Doesn't it make you wonder?
Well I am,

And if you see me walking by
You don't have to spend your time
Asking me if I'm alright
Do I look smarter?
Do I look stronger?
Doesn't it make you wonder?
Well I am, Well I am

(don't you wonder, don't you worry)

Juliet is Dead.

2009-01-22T07:41:56Z

"I don't dance no more."

Exactamundo.

2009-01-07T23:16:02Z

I know exactly what I want. I'm pretty sure you're just saddened that it's You that I do not want back. I know what's best for me, what's HEALTHY for me, and that's not drama. It amuses me that you actually thought after everything, with just a bit of effort, that things could be renewed again. What kind of girl do you take me for? A few apologies and sweet words would not even begin to make up for what had been done. I know, I've BEEN THERE.

I may live in another dimension, but at least it's not warped and fucked up. It's filled with "butterflies and unicorns."

If friendship can't happen, then that's the end of that. Nothing more to say. I tried.

The Lover and His Muse.

2009-01-07T21:20:43Z

Weather - Cold and Cloudy.

Verse 1
"you dont even know me"
she said,
"I don't think we've ever met!"
I think about you all the time
he said,
do you know what I mean by that?
then they're both silent, smiling
cuz he made an empty threat
its time to return to conniving
and its like this everday

Chorus
enslaved by dime and distance
they've got a long way to go
the story unfolds..
and he's sad
she's confused
watch the lover and his muse
yes she's bored
and he's true
there is nothing we can do
can you tell
how it will go?
will she win or will he lose
the lover and his muse

Verse 2
While she speaks to her mirror
he sits and prays by his bed
and sometimes they wonder together
what would happen if they met

they never stare at the same moon
they turn away instead
now they'r facing each other
and fate rolls the dice again

Chorus